Well, I tried publishing this about 2 minutes ago - I'm still unsure of how I managed to get lost there.

Anyway, this is something I wrote on my blog a while ago. It's merely mindless ramblins. Nothing deep or beautiful really. Just trying to fill up this space with... Me.


Ignorance is bliss. If I could start again, start life over, that's all I'd keep in mind. It is the single most important thing that dances around in my mind. That's the single sentence that fills me up with the most regret. That's the single sentence that I probably ponder over mostly. I suppose that maybe I regret most, that I know it. So yeah, if I could start over, I'd try to avoid books. Be them sci-if, history, novels, fantasy or whatever. Books increase your knowledge, even if its just your knowledge of words. Yah know, I've actually had to stupefy myself. I always used to get stupid comments in school if I used 'big words', so I just don't know (suppose its rather pretentious anyway.
I wouldn't allow myself to listen to so many beautiful musics. Music can make me (you) feel something. The Dead Kennedys (random example) makes me dislike the state of this society and abhor the government etc. There are so many songs that I love just for a feeling that they can bring up - that is just SO sublime. I love how music can do that. However, I'd rather stick to pop or something. That is just monotonous and boring so I wouldn't have these 'feelings' (unnecessary).
I wouldn't watch TV. This is quite a good one actually. There are some diamonds in the rough but I have spent just years corrupting my mind with such rubbish. I cant think of a better word. Not fully related to this, but I don't think newsreaders should get paid. I also hate how they have no feelings. Have they been asked to do that? Because that's pretty damn twisted if they have. They always look like they couldn't care less. That isn't why they shouldn't get paid, they shouldn't get paid because they are just telling us the news. Its not as if we can even be selective about it.
I'm not sure about this one but maybe I'd make myself blind. I am a very passionate girl. I float in and out of 'love' like a yoyo. Maybe if I was blind, then I wouldn't fall in love with lets say, the guy who just walked out of the pub and smiled sweetly at me or whatever. I couldn't fall in love with a sunset. I couldn't fall in love with some dude I'm talking to over MSN (probably really far away like in the US) because I couldn't even see the internet. I told somebody loved them. They have ignored me since then, it was like 6 weeks ago. Thanks for that. Seeing as I was blind, I probably wouldn't have played any computer games, which has thus resulted in far too much time on the internet. Usually not even talking about these computer games. Oh and ofcourse love at first sight wouldn't be possible. Good.

I wouldn't study hard at school. I 'd have fun and make sure everyone was my friend. Then when I was older I'd have all these great friends that I've known for years. Friends would make me so happy. Don't get me wrong, I have plenty of 'friends' but the sort that Icould drop and pick up at anytime without any hesitation. I wouldn't have time to think about being career-less. Oh and without watching the news I wouldn't know about all these sad things - that would cheer me up, I'm sure.

I wouldn't ever smoke pot - you analyze and think too much. Infact, no drugs. I wouldn't even know what they are. I would be so happy. Man, I wouldn't even NEED drugs.

I would never ever see the world. I would stay put. There is no need to know about different cultures and different people - they influence who you are. I wouldn't have all these friends if I started being like other people and not them (you know, picking things up from different people). These new people might suggest a book to me or something (in Braille?).

I wouldn't have a religion. A religion is basically a set of opinions. I don't want those. I wouldn't have any knowldge in anything to make them.

I'm sorry. I don't know what this is, hardly an introduction. Just a momentary rant. I just don't like how I've turned out. I think it would be better if I was a country bumpkin, like everyone around me. They seem happier than me. I always try to look at the brightside o of what's going on with me, to look ahead and smile. Unfortunately thought sometimes I just look at right now, I reflect on the say. And then, yah know, I don't feel so great after all.

Hiya
Thank you for the comment you left me. Ranting is good, I like to rant sometimes, hehe.
» AboutPaula on 2006-06-22 01:54:24

welcome to NuTang! hmm, let me know if you encounter that publishing problem again.
» dave on 2006-06-22 01:57:52

Hmm... quite an interesting first post.
Although I'd disagree with quite a few things you said in this, the concept behind the writing is rather... hopeful? I don't know. I liked it, though. :] Welcome to NuTang. ^_^ And keep up these rants.
» desertsnowstorm on 2006-06-22 02:00:11

Hullo hullo
Watch out for the monkeys.
» theZEBRA on 2006-06-22 08:42:08

CHARLATAN.

» le_battement on 2006-06-22 10:17:29

I've always wanted to be a roamer of the desert; an arab or some such. Back before the English introduced modern weapons, and long before those fucking Turks oppressed them. I despise Turks; I can spot them a mile away. My friends are constantly amazed at my Turk-spotting skill. It really is like an extra sense i was born with. This is why I think I should have been an arab. Plus Lebanese coffee is the best; I can't take anything weaker.
» le_battement on 2006-06-22 11:47:41

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